2017 was my year of FAITH and EXPLORATION, and I can successfully say I've increased in both areas. Being pushed, tested, placed in hard situations & challenges, and almost feeling like I was losing myself were necessary for the sake of my growth — mentally + emotionally. The biggest themes were healing, creating and making the most of each experience.
After last year’s hardship, I didn't know how this year would turn out. I knew there were lessons to learn, so I stayed conscious of them. However, out of rebellion, I ignored or didn't see them. Part of me knew exactly what I needed — time to heal and grow from a heartbreak.
Once I figured out closure wasn't an option, that’s when the true self-reflection began. I started to see the “ugly” emotions and flaws I’d been hiding from myself. I felt the need to change and wanted to dig deep into the root of the issues. Writing allowed me to be vulnerable and let out every emotion and figure out WHY I was feeling this way.
I was scared and wasn't ready to deal with the emotions that came with healing. I wanted what I lost back, pretty much at any cost, even if it meant my sanity. The suddenness in the matter left me shook, out of my element, and a loss for words. Though my friends said I was doing well moving on, it didn’t feel like it. I was fighting urges and deep feelings of being alone.
It was the middle of September when I finally realized and verbally admitted the problem - ME. I wasn't ready because I always expected things to go back to normal, but they never did. I expected a lot of things to help me heal, such as closure, untold answers, and wanting a face to face connection. None of that happened - all the hoping and dreaming went tumbling down into a dark abyss. I never thought I would be that girl, who needed someone else to fulfill her every whim, but that’s who I had become.
Fear kept my faith in healing down. It made me feel like I couldn’t heal or change and that I was stuck being the same person I’ve always been. But I realized fear is all in the mind and seeing isn’t believing. You have to put the time in and make sure you are gaining the outcome you want. That's exactly what I did.
Vision boards are new craze at the beginning and end of each year. These boards inspire and encourage individuals to follow their dreams and passions in a visual way. Photos, words, and quotes from magazines, newspapers make vision boards come to life. While some have themes, others are pasted pictures individuals feel are important in + for their lives.
I've been creating vision boards for at least three years now. Earlier this month, I attended a vision board party. I must say every singular picture and word are in the direction I want my life to go in, but also in alignment.
Within the last quarter of the year, we've learned so much from the #MoxieFriday series like being resourceful, strategic, accepting ourselves and the importance of forgiveness. I'm grateful to share these women's stories and to know each of them personally.
We are going out with a bang as we share the last #MoxieFriday feature for 2017, which features Denitra Townsend, but don't worry - we will be back with new women + their stories in 2018. If you would like to see someone featured on this series soon, please fill out this form.
So I've known Denitra for years and love her to pieces. She is a phenomenal woman of God, amazing at her craft, and one of the sweetest spirits I know. Keep reading to learn about her and her empowering project.
We get ideas. We marinate to see if they're solid, brainstorm the outcome, then plan and strategize. Fruition and execution stages come next and that's where the nervousness kicks in, but we do it anyway. Those notifications start rolling in one by one and for me, my initial reaction is usually a shocking one, pressed with fear and creeping negative emotions.
Is there anyone else who trembles at the thought of pushing past fears and doubts to excel in what you actually want? That’s the season I’m going into right now. As rewarding as it, the thought of "doing more" scares me to pieces but I CANNOT let it stop me!
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